Future+things.

❝There's this thing called the heart
Well mine's beats in the rhythm of the dark
I can't find what my purpose is
Or who I am
I feel so damn lost in this world.❞

-Ajrafael

I've been thinking about my future recently. I feel like studying in a music school. I might not know that much about instruments or notes, but my inner passion for singing is just breaking the walls of my heart. I want to meet more people. I want to expose my soul to a whole new era of music. I want to reinvent myself as a whole and I want to start off as a new person. I don't want to sing just for the fun of it. I want to sing, for myself. Music for me is like touching an angel. Music is my main source of surviving in this horrid world.

But, what if I fail to success in this course? What if i screw up my future?

I do not want to turn out like a dependent parasite, leeching off everyone. I want to be someone independent, and does everything for oneself. Yes, I enjoy being in the centre of attention. I like getting the credit for my work. I love being praised. I do not hide all these traits just because i fear of what people will think of me.

So what if they hate me?

So what if they think that i'm a 2 faced bitch?

So what?

As long as i know that i'm better than them, no verbal accusations will destroy me.

Oh my god, how did talking about my future get to this subject? I'm sorry.

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i hate teachers.

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mood: aggressive

music: Midknight - Aj Rafael

" KatBadar, Aj Rafael, Andrew Garcia, and Jesse Barrera are my ultimate inspiration!"