Lost.

Scurrying through the green mazes of this fortress; i see a light.

The pitiful stationary rocks and stones as my trail to fight;

I saw a deer, it called me to its cave that consisted of many other's fate.

There stood a majestic lion, gleaming eyes shining in the sun,

it said to me, "Trust the path with the eyes of an eagle that glides through the sky bed, thou shalt pass this maze of possibilities with the strong grasp of thine claw."

And it vanished along with the gust of wind.

I blinked, not once, but twice. I twisted my neck and gazed at the sky. Confusion spread through my veins as I walked along with the path of it's given nature.

Those words echoed through the hollow spaces of my head like a chant, a powerful mantra.

I'm waiting for an epiphany to light up the dreary thunderstorm in my head, and hopefully,

my days with shine brightly again.

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This week has been an utter emotional roller coaster. I cannot seem to stabilize all my emotions and stop them from wavering. As much as I try to be happy, depression is always an obstacle to my target.

Everyone seems to think that I'm ALWAYS happy, I'm as bright as the next sunshine, i'm a preppy little cheerful girl with a smile stitched on to my face, but boy, how wrong are they? I'm practically as gloomy and sullen as a person living inside an empty box. Trapped, but lost. Only the people who i truly love and trust are the ones who are able to stop that emotional roller coaster from twisting and falling.  Hah, even my family is unable to make me happy anymore.

Funny isn't it?

*smiles darkly

Maybe it's the process of growing, where you think too much of the future and forget about the past. Where... you feel like you're allocated to another world but you're still in the same place. That suffocation you feel that is pressurizing your heart, soul and mind and you just feel like nothing in the world matters anymore, and you're gone and done with everything that came to your existence. But even so, there's always a person that will stop you from all that thoughts and save you back to reality, and then you realize that nothing else matters anymore except for that person, and that person is your reason to stay happy :).

It's funny how love can effect someone so greatly, no matter good or bad.

Love is funny, but it's not a joke.

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I wish that everything between the world and I would turn out okay.

It's the connection and bond that only one can understand.

It's the force of attraction.

au revoir.