Another day of life.

 

hi.

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There were so many times in my life, i felt like i wanted to give up on everything i have. To everyone, you might think, "She's just a young girl, how depressed can she be? Must be some small little matter." but i assure you, NO. I've been through tough things throughout my whole life, and it has gotten to a point where it went a little too much for me to handle. I broke down, i cried, i wept, i was mentally ill. There's only so much i can handle at my age, and it's practically killing me on the inside to break through that wall of gold. I wanted to give up on life, i wanted to just get my life over with, but, that's not the reason we're created to be on this earth.

But now, I've grown up to be a little more knowledgeable and wise. I've learnt that whenever we're dealing with a difficult situation, we must have a strong mindset to say, "No, I will not give up." Hang on to that thin piece of thread 'till you climb up and be safe again. Sacrifice yourself to break through that wall of gold. Give your everything to each day of your life. Appreciate each day that passes by, because every day we can wake up alive and still breathing, is a day to appreciate. There are so many people out there willing to take our place as a human. We whine about the slightest mishaps, we complain about the smallest flaws, but what about those living in abject poverty? They don't complain about their hunger although they might've been in starvation, they don't ask for the newest bargains even though they're only coated with thin scraps of cloth! 

I want to appreciate each day i live, no matter how deeply scarred i am; no matter how hurt i am. I want to appreciate every moment of happiness and grief. If our life is only immersed in luxurious happiness, we wouldn't learn from anything, we wouldn't get any more maturer, we wouldn't grow up and learn the tough realities of life. Life needs to have ups and downs, because that in my opinion makes life more interesting. Not every day is just a fairytale. If life was just a fairytale, where would we get our excitement? We live for an adventure and we greed for danger, because that is the thing that keeps us going. 

Let me tell you a story;

The way i was given birth to, was when my mum had a surgery to take me out from her belly. It was all fine at first, the doctor skillfully used the scalpel to cut through my mum's abdomen. It was clean and professional....but whilst the doctor was cutting through my mum's abdomen, his scalpel cut through my forehead by accident, and as all of you know, the skin and bones of a freshly born baby is extremely thin and fragile. I was bleeding unstoppably. The procedure from then started to get rushed and worried. I was immediately sent to another doctor to stop the bleeding and all the other beyond the norm stuff. Until today, you can still see the slight scar on the upper right of my forehead. I could've died on the day itself, and i wasn't even a day old. I feel so lucky to be able to wake up everyday of my life still breathing. I've never gave much thought about this tragedy 'till recently when my mum brought this up again and clarify the whole process because she thought i was old enough the handle all of this. 

From this day onwards, i will live my life to the max, and appreciate whatever that is given to me at this very moment. I'm going to appreciate life as it is and not worry about the future. We are living IN the present, and therefore i will pass each day of my life thanking the Lord that I am still here, healthy and completely alive.

I'm sorry for such a long post for today. I just wanted to share my feelings with everyone on this earth :).

"This too shall pass." - Yolanda Adams

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Au revoir.