Trust.

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WHAT'S UP HOMIES?

Cheers for the super duper fast updates! 

Today; (June 18 Friday)

baby♥ came over to my house to chill and stuff.

Had a great time :). I miss him already~

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I hate something about myself.

I'm too sensitive sometimes. My trust in everyone is easily shaken, regardless of who they are. No matter how much i WANT to trust someone, i can't bring myself to securely believe them. Sometimes i'm just pulling strings on my own puppet to cover up my own worries and insecurities. I'll just smile and say "I don't really care." when actually it's damaging my own emotions and hurting me endlessly. I'll always try  to pretend that i'm strong when i really just want to crouch down i drown myself in tears.

And all i have is myself to blame.

I push myself to be strong, to not be easily stirred and played. I've always wanted to be that kind of a person who's nonchalant and easy. Like those who takes nothing seriously and doesn't get hurt as much as I do. 

I know that i have people who loves me and trusts me, and expects me to trust them equally in return. But i'm sorry that i can't. I genuinely am. 

I want to bring myself to trust everyone. I want to but i simply can't.

I'm sorry.

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au revoir.